what do one wants to achieve ...............

When i came to this world i wanted only mom and mom's love .when i started walking and learnt how to walkl with out mom's support i have satrted neglecting mom and i wanted to go out and play with all kids who were in play ground.

When i got promoted from primary school to secondary i wanted still play ground did not give importance to studies but used to just study because of parents fear. when i was in class seven also i was not serious that was the first time i was facing the exam where my class teacher won't evaluate but my paper goes to a teacher whom i have never seen but i got through that .I thought it was a big achievement in life i got through that exam.

Then again routine 8th and 9th again a kind of fear came to give 10th exams so from the begining in was serious but still had fear with social studies and got through in normal way first class was happy till this time was in telugu medium.

When i had a phase where i had to adjust with medium shift and co-education it was a great fear with in me but had a zoology teacher in +1 she was a great help for me .She was my teacher in college and friend when i come out of class i used to wait for her used to go to her buss stop even though it was far was very friendly she was real great help for me but suddenly she left the college but did not leave me she used to teach private tutions for me in +2 also so was not worried at all +1 was a great achievement and in that year only two got through all the papers successfully i was one in that .

When i got through +2 in that area we never think other than medical field ofcourse i was born in the hospital as everyone takes birth in the hospital i was brought up also in the campus because my mom dad used to work for mission hospital .In my family there was one already into hospital health care but did not wanted to become technician or nurse .Did not tell anyone it happend such i gave MBBS entrance test was not at all ambicious in life just gave went to university got to sit there gave exam was first exam where my mom did not pray for me and my dad was not there with me.It was in tirupathi my cousin accompanied me and gave came out and came to my cousins house everyone started asking first of all i did not study gave all guessings except zoology and botony papers but knew that i will not get seat.Then was the phase to attend BSc Nursing exam wow it was very exiting ...

BSc nursing exam again in tirupathi gave well this time mom prayed and mom accompanied me got the results in the evening poor cousinbrother got a bad news that my name was not there in first list started crying because i never expected even though i did not wanted to become a nurse i thought i will get seat and will reject it .The thinking was wrong came home sweet home where my dad had taken a big lecture did not come out of home was inside just listening to music . After a week my dad came in the afternoon with a application form . By that time i had filled so many and got so many precious words to hear form dad. He says" you do not even know how to fill a application form how will you do the course forget it join some primary school teacher course or ANM course it is again a nursing course where she is a supporting nurse will take bed pans and just give bath to patient ".

so got that filled up normally dad filles up application because he thinks i will over write on something and he needs to put whitener it is a solution used to just apply on papers where we have done some mistakes called erasex also ... so he filled posted got hall ticket as usual went to Tirupathi .Going to tirupathi was exiting get to meet cousins and wow i used to enjoy went there with a big entrance preparation book studied and wrote exam in the same university where i wrote MCET but different building mom wa there with em this time .

One day after this got call letter for the BCA first call letter wow my dad was happy chalo kuch tho hai abhi went to university auditorium in the morning my another cousin was asst professor in the same university he was really worried anyways he said our turn came and there is one college in Tirupathi where there are some seats and it is AP Residential college anyways i had no clue what was it all about got admitted .

Now got in to hostel life it was horrible one bath room and 12 girls . managed some how mom had bought matters and pillow set my room inside and she left me there .Did not knew how to lead life i donot know how to wash cloths mom said she will come and take home wash and get it back anyways used to wait for mom to come .The most important thing is i can not eat food if it is not cooked in proper way as my mom cooks so weeks i did not eat anything and one day i saw my cousins friend in my principals room i had just stood in front of him cried a lot my principal saw that came to him .

principal: sir do you know this girl oh GOD she is not eating anything she does not talk to anyone had lots of complaints she waits for her mothers call .if she continues like this we have to see her dead body one day

Brothers cousin: no no sir she is the yonger one and he tried his level best to convince that principal .


I was badly hurt told my brother to ask my cousin to call they have decided not to call one sunday morning i was just sitting inside i could hear somebody shouting my name for the first time and just opend my room doors wow a great gift my mom and sis cried a lot my sis also she went to my cousins home and cried a lot they were not ready to keep me because there was no lady in that house anyways they had there own reasons then suddenly i got an opportunity to stay there my loving sis came from bangalore serched a job for me both satyed and finished BCA .

After BCA i had to do masters but gave again the entrace got seat in JNTU university did not wanted to join there because i wanted in Tirupathi .Then had a time to spend with small kids in a big english medium school as computer teacher but worst part is wearing sary which i never wore in my life left that joined another small school which was away from my place but small village .Had a wonderful chidren in both the schools they used to love me so much till today they come my home to wish me on christmas and new year . I had lovely time there were times i used to go away from kids in church they used to wish me good morning miss oh GOD but they love me so much .One year was that then later my sis got an applicaton this time for MHM course in Apollo Hospitals Jubileehills .Wrote exam and got in to it finished course and had a lovely time with sis even she was doing her masters in her own field so we were together and on 11th sept was the painful time to leave my family sis for the first time and went to capital city of India delhi.

Delhi first few days stayed in guest house and later shifted to a flat which was given by hospital .on the second day we met our GM operations and he said we want two girls to go to medical superintendent office to work for doccumentation in four me and another girl was selected and went to work with MS thenone day as i was working and preparing ISO and JCIA doccuments i met a guy was smart and had a crush it went on six months my departmental shift was there but my eyes were always on the guy who was in that hospital but after six months the time started to search a job met a Directir Medical Services who was my guide when i was in hyderabad for my dissertation he said i need you people in Dhaka apollo thats how iam here to day it's been six months since i left India i came here on 28th may 2005 and rest i will explain later my experience in Bangladesh .....

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